I know you haven't been there
through my entire life
school, boys, friends
all my paining strife.
I know you try your hardest
to fend for this big family
supporting, loveing, caring
just being all you can be.
I know you love us all
but sometimes just take a break
working, hurting, paining
hit the car brakes.
I know what is
the hardest thing for you
time, money, children
clearly inside you're blue.
I know what you need now
it's called a very long vacation
stop. wait. now go
you are only Gods creation.
Deciding on the hard things
are just as easy
as thinking of the smart
and even the sleazy.
Some things in life
I may never understand
to those who even care
and this is where I stand.
I will never understand
why you let me go
why you gave me all this pain
even if I didn't let it show.
It really is hard
to deal with all you crap
even when your a jerk
I just want to give you a smack.
So this is my decision
now leave me alone
get out of my mind
I'm going home.
Where it may never be safe
but at home I know
you wont be there
just let me go.
I sometimes think
That my life is a bore
No one to hold me
Not even when I feel sore
I know in my heart
I want to find love
Even you lord
Though u are way above
You help me though my troubles
And every time I'm blue
Hoping some day on earth
O will have someone so true
He makes me smile
Even when I know I'm sad
I think of him all the time
Even when I'm told I'm bad
So the next time I think
Of when I want to be with you
I will hope and dream of that one day
When it will just be us two.
I sit there and think,
of what my life should be,
before my mom died,
this is the life I lead.
I sing, cheer, and dance,
and play the clarinet,
I try to avoid my life,
even when its at its best.
Now what I do show,
is my true feelings inside,
I keep them bottled and hidden,
as I watch days go by.
There are so many problems,
going on in my life,
I want them resolved so bad,
I know that doesn`t happen overnight.
What I can do,
to make it so much better,
Sometimes I should just,
write it all down in a letter.
A letter to my family,
stating that im gone,
to a far, far away place,
I won`t be back for long.
Because my life i
Standing there
wanting to leave
He is preventing me
from going anywhere
He pushes me a little farther
than i know i could handle
Grabs my wrists and forces me
way towards the ground I go
I try to fight him off
kicking, punching, screaming, crying
Pinned to the ground
with his had on my neck
She gets him away from me
I still crying
Fear of hurt, fear of pain
back in the farthest corner I can go
Father you hurt me
a lasting memory
No more pain
Im gone forever
The first time I saw you,
I didn't think we would talk,
You were with my best friend,
And we were going for a walk.
I thought you were cute,
With just the right smile,
But you liked my best friend,
So I was going to wait a while.
When I saw u the second time,
You were there for me,
You were over my best friend.
You made me so happy.
You told me it was,
Just love at first sight,
I started this friendship off,
With all of my might.
I wondered what made you like me,
Was it my just my looks,
There is more to me than that,
Just ignore all my looks
You make me smile,
And want to see you,
Every minute every hour,
I feel like b
I know you haven't been there
through my entire life
school, boys, friends
all my paining strife.
I know you try your hardest
to fend for this big family
supporting, loveing, caring
just being all you can be.
I know you love us all
but sometimes just take a break
working, hurting, paining
hit the car brakes.
I know what is
the hardest thing for you
time, money, children
clearly inside you're blue.
I know what you need now
it's called a very long vacation
stop. wait. now go
you are only Gods creation.
Deciding on the hard things
are just as easy
as thinking of the smart
and even the sleazy.
Some things in life
I may never understand
to those who even care
and this is where I stand.
I will never understand
why you let me go
why you gave me all this pain
even if I didn't let it show.
It really is hard
to deal with all you crap
even when your a jerk
I just want to give you a smack.
So this is my decision
now leave me alone
get out of my mind
I'm going home.
Where it may never be safe
but at home I know
you wont be there
just let me go.
I sometimes think
That my life is a bore
No one to hold me
Not even when I feel sore
I know in my heart
I want to find love
Even you lord
Though u are way above
You help me though my troubles
And every time I'm blue
Hoping some day on earth
O will have someone so true
He makes me smile
Even when I know I'm sad
I think of him all the time
Even when I'm told I'm bad
So the next time I think
Of when I want to be with you
I will hope and dream of that one day
When it will just be us two.
I sit there and think,
of what my life should be,
before my mom died,
this is the life I lead.
I sing, cheer, and dance,
and play the clarinet,
I try to avoid my life,
even when its at its best.
Now what I do show,
is my true feelings inside,
I keep them bottled and hidden,
as I watch days go by.
There are so many problems,
going on in my life,
I want them resolved so bad,
I know that doesn`t happen overnight.
What I can do,
to make it so much better,
Sometimes I should just,
write it all down in a letter.
A letter to my family,
stating that im gone,
to a far, far away place,
I won`t be back for long.
Because my life i
Standing there
wanting to leave
He is preventing me
from going anywhere
He pushes me a little farther
than i know i could handle
Grabs my wrists and forces me
way towards the ground I go
I try to fight him off
kicking, punching, screaming, crying
Pinned to the ground
with his had on my neck
She gets him away from me
I still crying
Fear of hurt, fear of pain
back in the farthest corner I can go
Father you hurt me
a lasting memory
No more pain
Im gone forever
The first time I saw you,
I didn't think we would talk,
You were with my best friend,
And we were going for a walk.
I thought you were cute,
With just the right smile,
But you liked my best friend,
So I was going to wait a while.
When I saw u the second time,
You were there for me,
You were over my best friend.
You made me so happy.
You told me it was,
Just love at first sight,
I started this friendship off,
With all of my might.
I wondered what made you like me,
Was it my just my looks,
There is more to me than that,
Just ignore all my looks
You make me smile,
And want to see you,
Every minute every hour,
I feel like b
I can remember a time in my life,
That my mother was there for me,
That she said she would love me forever,
And show she would always care for me.
I was young, just 10 years old,
Waken up by my sisters screams,
She pulled me out of bed,
I was lost in what was happening.
She said my mother was in trouble,
And that she couldnt breathe.
So I dialed 911, hoping to save her life,
But as I stood there, my heart crying inside of me.
The operator picked up and said what is your emergency?
My mother is dying, please hurry. I cried in vain.
She said stay with me and dont hang up.
I say ok being in so m
this is me. i think so much, i write so much, so many emotions fill my life. Some are positive some are not, just depends on the events that can happen.
Current Residence: PA Favourite genre of music: everything except most country Favourite style of art: the awesome kind MP3 player of choice: ipod shuffle! Personal Quote: "Love is out there. You just have to find it."
Well lately things have been better. My dad and i are getting along, and my stepmom seems like she is trying to get along with me as well as i am. Hopefully things will continue! BDAY is in 13 days. YAY. click here to give me points for my bday! Please. :) or llama badges. http://poetrylover18.deviantart.com/?givepoints
so here is the thing, I recently started liking someone and my ex boyfriend had his hopes up that we would get back together but i dont know if i want to be with him. Everything between us is always so complicated and its stupid. UGH! Why do things have to be so difficult? I mean if he really loves me he will wait for me to decide what i want to do. :(
[] You have a boyfriend/girlfriend.
[] You have your own room.
[x] You own a cell phone.
[x] You have an mp3 player/ipod.
[] Your parents are still married.
[x] You love your family
[] There is a pool/spa in your backyard.
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[x] You dress the way you want to.
[] You hang out with friends more than once a week.
[] There is a computer/ laptop in your room.
[] You have never been beaten up..
[x] You are allowed to listen to the music you want to.
[] Your room is big enough for you.
[x] People don't use you for something you have.
[x] You have been to the movies.
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[] You have over 500 friends on facebook.